Perspective

This is more of a journal post for myself more than anything.

A week ago was easily the most difficult night of my life. We were so excited, we were expecting! We couldn't wait until September 16 after I went to the Dr. to tell everyone that Addy was going to be a big sister. Then, it changed. It turned to dreading going to the Dr. I experienced something that I never thought would ever happen to me, but then again, who does? Who predicts that they are going to have a miscarriage?...I know I didn't.

I immediately had so many questions. First of all why? Why did this have to happen to me, to Jason, and our little family? What did I do wrong? How are we going to tell our families that we aren't expecting anymore? Would it have been a boy or a girl? Would they have looked like Addy?

Naturally, I started to reflect on the things that I know regarding families. I know that families are forever. I know that baby was a special spirit. I still have a lot of questions, but I do know that my little family is a forever family. And nothing can ever take that away from me. I know that I will be a mother again, and that Jason will be a daddy again and Addy will be a big sister someday. It might not be tomorrow, or as soon as we thought, but someday, it will happen. When the timing is right.