Forgiveness

If you read my New Year's Resolution you know it was in a nutshell to be charitable but not be taken advantage of. I actually have been thinking a lot about that. I know that when you set goals they definitely need to be specific. I'm not sure if that goal is overly specific. I think that before i can accomplish that goal I need to learn to forgive. I have always thought of myself to be a forgiving person. Well-a few events have proven otherwise. So, I have revised my resolution. I am going to work on learning to forgive. I realize that I have the choice to forgive. I feel like there are certain situations in my life that I forgive easily, but then others I don't. I can think of 3 specific people in my life( or aren't necessarily in my life anymore) that I need to forgive. When the thought of forgiving them comes to mind-I can feel a wall go up in my heart. A wall that says "You don't deserve to be forgiven-you have hurt me way too bad, and I deserve to stay mad and hate you forever". But then I realize, me not forgiving them isn't hurting them. All it's doing is hurting me. I'm not sure where to go from here. How do I break through this barrier of being mad and moving on to forgiving people? I guess this is something that I am going to have to learn. I have a feeling it is going to be a difficult lesson to learn but one that in the end will be a huge blessing. Well-I think that this has been a long enough rant-if you made it through it congratulations and I apologize!